Usable Brokenness

     Brokenness makes one whole, again...Learning to find direction from the expended emptiness of one's yesterdays.

 

     Once upon time, love was found in what appears to be all the wrong places. It's amazing how forgiveness and unconditional love becomes a 'One-Way' journey. Closing one's eyes traveling back in time; one finds there is | was an assortment of flashing insignia along the course. Instead of stopping to read and reflect on all the warning signs, traveling to an unknown destination with eyes wide closed, one became loss in familiar territory.

 

     Yesterday's tears turned into ice and became a skating rink, to slide into today's brokenness. But, today's brokenness leaked something usable for tomorrow's survival. Unfortunately, life can issue one Great Falls and all the King's men and all the King's horseman can't mend our brokenness or put us back together, again. Knowing there is usability in one's brokenness...reality becomes complicated as one stands peering at the icy elements, praying that the heart of woman doesn't become as cold, harden and daggered as the sickles hanging from the awnings.

 

     Lord, mend all brokenness! You are the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords! Use the brokenness as a warning sign, allow others to be healed after witnessing one surviving during the winter season, let others acknowledge that without God, this level of endurance is unattainable.

                  This Brokenness is Opening Doors for Greatness!!!

 

 

Signed, Broken for Purpose

     

It's All About Sisterhood

     As the founder of Phenomenal Women of God, Inc., I would like to acknowledge my sisters in Christ for hearing and pursing purpose, in the creating of a 'phenomenal Sisterhood.' My Sister's Keeper International!

     This sisterhood was created after a group of women came together for a 21-Day Daniel Fast in January 2015. The commitment to the 5am morning prayers and the Monday - Friday evening devotionals was outstanding. God developed such a hunger and thirst for more in many of the women. Out of this 21-Day commitment, came My Sister's Keeper International; this is sisterhood is continuing with morning prayers Monday - Friday at 5am and an once a week 'Girl Talks,' on Thursday evenings. The Thursday evening Girl Talks evolved into more than spiritual devotions, but getting to the heart of the matter of discussing Real Women Issues...! Yes, the sisterhood is a group of women who love serving the Lord, but who understand there are 'Real Life Issues' we each face daily.

     Special shout-outs to my sisters Danyle Wilson and Claudia Donnell for a vision of greatness for women. Who said a group of women cannot co-exist in a group and get along? Well, in striving to understand different personalities and comprehending we each do/have face(d) diverse life challenges, it's all about learning one another and being willing to accept others right where she is in life. No one can change another person...so, it's about choosing to 'love' a person right in the heart of their nakedness. This is what My Sister's Keeper International is ALL about!!!

     Do you dare to love your sisters in their Nakedness??? If so, check out My Sister's Keeper International in the open Facebook group. You want regret taking the sisterhood plunge.

Signed, Learned to Stop Being What | Who I am Not...

The Leaking of a Mother’s Heart

 

The atrocities of our past keep leaking on the streets of our today! The lines are ever so blurred, to the point of stigmatism, farsightedness, and nearsightedness of what many are consciously choosing NOT to see. THIS IS CALLED BLANTANT BLINDNESS!!! 

We have a Lost Generation | Loss Generation! NOTE: Before you hit that reply button, pick-up a Thesaurus and feel the leak of this mother’s heart. This is not one of those degrading post, but one to awaken our hearts to prayer and action.

If the people of God are perpetrating, as if the News stations apply to ‘them’ [others] and not us [you] as an individual, we are a people ever so blinded by a shield of ignorance coupled with severe arrogance. As I peeped at the calendar this morning, it reminded me, that in 2-weeks and 3-days, my baby brother WOULD HAVE BEEN 32-years old, had the atrocities of our past NOT leaked on to My Street. What I’m referring to is the ethnic analysis a segment of society has rendered more expendable than others.

There is dilapidation so many African-American families (not to say, the sense family is only decaying in the black family, I can only walk a mile in my own shoes). We have forfeited our sense of morals, integrity, togetherness [our village] and love for one another. We began to take on the persona of what we so carelessly thought was the better way, to the detriment of our legacies. No, I am not advocating as a people we need to rehearse the 60’s, but I am advocating being more relatable and relational with what we call Lost |Loss. Because, what we are labeling loss | lost, is about each of our heritage.

Let me share a bit of reality: I Am a Black Mother with a Leak in My Heart! As a mother of three, two being African-American males and the grandmother of two African American | Caucasian males, there is a NEED to teach them how to live and survive in this 21^st century with the atrocities of our past leaking into our present.

Things I Had to Teach you, Son…

·         Know your worth! Why, because I speak life to you not Defeat!

·         Intelligence sits on the front row of the class! Just trying to get by sits at the back of the class. Know your worth!

·         You will have to study twice as hard; the standardized tests are not equivalent to the outdated education you are receiving in the Hood. Know Your Worth!

·         You are more than a sport (football, basketball, baseball, tennis, golf, etc.)! Use it as an apparatus, to move upward, without the guilt from those of the Hood. Know Your Worth!

·         As you Rise, don’t compromise your morals and integrity. Know Your Worth!

·         As you are FORCED to Code Switch in the boardroom, don’t lose you! Know Your Worth!

·         As you Rise economically, be careful in your new gated community and don’t tint your windows too dark on your new Aston Martin DB9 and the family care, your Bentley Continental GT, because it’s possible for you to be mistaken as an intruder and a thief, even in the daylight. But, Know your Worth!

·         And, in case You, My Son allow life to deal you a spoonful of vinegar, due to life decisions, remember you can recover from a fall…Know Your Worth!

·         To My Carmel grandbabies, You love your families because in your little cocoon it’s all you know. Know Your Worth…

·         When society tries to categorize your ethnicity and tries to persuade you to choose sides…Know Your Worth is in Both Sides!!!

·         I need you to pull your pants up, Not because I don’t like it, but because there is a stereotype, which says you are expendable based on your expression of self…Know Your Worth!

·         When you are walking down the street, turn your hat around so you are NOT categorized…Know Your Worth!

·         Carry your backpack like a school boy, on both shoulders, NOT to be categorized…Know Your Worth!

·         Understand the uniform in the neighborHOOD schools, is not who you are…Know Your Worth!

·         When test, do your Best because your scores are being analyzed to determine if you are a candidate for the next generation Penal Institutions…Know Your Worth!

·         Don’t ALLOW your neighborHOOD school teacher to make your feel inferior, many are at your at-risk school, so their Student Loans will be paid in full…Know Your Worth!

·         This is Dedicated to All My Sons and Carmel Grandbabies trying to survive in the Jungle of this thing WE call Life…Never Forget Your Worth…Know Your Worth! 

Signed, A Leak in My Heart

Open Heart Surgery

We guard our hearts because it is the life line of our soul...It is the well-spring of our existence.

But, too many times in the guarding process, we are really bandaging our hearts instead of allowing the Master Physician to perform open heart surgery. The guarding process turns into building a bullet proof encasement where we set our hearts. This stalls the healing process and one walks through life in a state of numbness...believing it's better not to feel.

Many don't realize that what we conceal can NEVER be healed! The encasement becomes too small to hide our wounds on a continuous basis. One responds to things in their immediate environment based on the tragedy of the past. It is imperative for one to NOT allow the past to defined by their present...To put it bluntly one must not be defined by their DNA...

Really? Yes really!!! Life becomes our most profound teacher, when we recognize that sometimes it is those who say they Love Us, who damage us the most.

Learning to accept people for who and what they are, we begin to limit our expectations. We cannot expect something from a person without knowing if he/she is capable of giving at that level. Lessons learned: When people show you who they are, BELIEVE THEM!!! 

One must learn to allow people to be who they are without any expectations. Each of us can ONLY love on the level, in which we are exposed. Meaning, for most, if love or anything in life was taught, learned, or received in limitation, then usually one can only relieve in limitation. But,  truly believing one can expand their capabilities by exposure. For instance, life cannot take a person anywhere they are unwilling to allow new experiences.

Pulling off the bandages of shame, hurt, dis-ease, fakeness, and whatever else hinders from knowing the reflection staring back at one through this mirror of life.

Signed,

Found the Healing Key, in Loving Me Some Me

 

Memories of Yester-Year...

Memories of Yester-Year...

Over the last few days I have found myself reminiscing about yester-year. Our memories, though hidden from those we surround, are a POWERFUL apparatuses to bring a smile to our faces. As my mind ruminates, so much encompasses myobservance of those who laid the bricks of the path for my lineage.  

This deep concentration is causing me to pose my own set of ‘why’s’ which I believe I already have an answer. I dedicate this reflection to some closer than close love-ones…They were examples for ‘US’ [family] and our future generations. Many things were infinite to them! To name a few: Love, Family, Togetherness, God, Work, Entrepreneurship, Helpers, Givers, Providers and…the list is immeasurable. There impartation of family, love and caregiver was so phenomenal, there are many attempting to mimic the walk. Though we can NEVER be them per say, but we can exhibit and pass on their tenaciousness of NEVER giving up. We are their Legacy! Does this mean we will or need to be perfect…NEVER; but what it does mean is when life dispenses a summons for our failure, we MUST retaliate with a dagger to the heart of the ‘Issues of Life’ trying toterminate our Purpose and Destiny. Purpose and Destiny belong to Us and we only lose if we quit. WE WIN, IF WE DON’T QUIT!!!  

There will ALWAYS be ‘Issues & Tissues!’ Let the tears stream into the tissues and stay focused because the current issue will subside. Remember, weeping but a night and joy always come in the morning…the length and depth of each person’s weeping and the arrival of morning is diverse for each.

First, we owe God the endurance of never quitting! And, we should honor our trailblazers by pursuing life at all cost…This journey WILL cost Us something…The question is: Are you willing to travel the narrow road into Purpose and Destiny?

Signed,

Tenacious About My Journey

The Roar Inside...

In My Feelings, Again!!! A few weeks ago I wrote a post “No More Bipolar Walks.” So, You

already know the trials have come and went, and on and on…but I have truly learned this journey is not about whether or not I feel it. It’s about what I believe and having the faith to persevere, even at the midnight hour. There are days or should l say weeks that it seems my head is about to explode because of ALL I desire to accomplish. This has been one of those weeks. There is much encompassing my mind; projects, reaching out to those less fortunate, loving on those who are lost and of course, teaching the Word of God. Yes, doors are opening….But, it seems as though something is missing…#InMyFeelings

I must admit this journey is TEACHING MEthat I can be my own BEST Cheerleader or my own WORSE Enemy…As the words to an old hymnal goes, “Sometimes you have to Encourage Yourself.” But, I would be ‘Faking the Funk,’ if I didn’t admit it would be nice to have those who walk and talk with one daily to see the tenaciousness of your moving and shaking…**Shrugs Shoulders** Regardless, if others see it or not, I Must Keep Pushing, if not, I will always be living a Dream Deferredwithout every seeing it come to Fruition.

Just in My Feelings, so I decided to write…writing seems to be the peace to my soul (other than the word of God). This is my Vent…

My ‘Me’ Prayer: Father, Thank you for making me righteous and accepted though the Blood of Jesus. Because of that, I and blessed and highly favored by You. I am the Object of Your affection. Your favor surrounds me as a shield and the first thing people come in contact with is my favor shield. People will go out of their way to bless me; doors that were once closed are now open. I have preferential treatment and special privileges; no good things SHALL be withheld from me. I have supernatural increase and promotion. I declare restoration of everything the enemy has stolen; I have increase of assets and expansion of territories in every area of my life…I have Great victories, supernatural turnarounds and miraculous breakthroughs in the mist of great impossibilities. Petitions are granted to me even by ungodly authorities. Policies, rules, regulations and laws are changed and reversed on my behalf. I am winning battles that I don’t have to fight, because God fights them for me. Today and everyday forth is my appointed time…the best days, set time and designated moments for me to experience the FREE FAVORS of God…#Selah

Signed,

The Roar of the Lioness 

#Breakthrough #Freedom #Vision #WalkingItOut #Smile #Cry #JustDontQuit

Dear God

Thank you for the opportunity to Celebrate the Day of Our Risen Savior. Many dressed to impress and attended a worship service on what is known to us as Easter Sunday. In the natural sense, this day of celebration for many has come and gone, but for those we revel Jesus on a daily basis, there is Much work to do. For those who are called | chosen to the frontlines, there is a tug in the Soul to feed the people of God. Many hear the cry, but few a compelled to respond… Matthew 9:36-38 (NKJV) “But when He saw the multitudes, He was moved with compassion for them, because they were weary and scattered, like sheep having no shepherd. Then He said to His disciples, “The harvest truly is plentiful, but the laborers are few. Therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest.” Father, there is a ‘War Cry’ coming from the people! They are crying unto you wandering in a wilderness of the abyss of their minds, their past, their failures, their loneness and emptiness, etc. They are wondering if anyone, someone can hear their cries. God, wants those who are crying out to know there are a people who “…have not forgotten You, Nor have we dealt falsely with Your [God’s] covenant. Our heart has not turned back, Nor have our steps departed from Your [God’s] way…” Psalm 44:17-18 (NKJV). A Prayer for those on the Frontline of Ministries… Father, Thank you for your Favor! Luke 2:52 “And Jesus increased in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men.” Father, you said we are made in your image; therefore, the same SHALL be for the people doing the work. Thanking for favor, finances, and hearts to acknowledge You in ALL our ways, so You will continually direct our paths. As we go forth to do the work, No Weapons formed against SHALL BE ABLE to Prosperous in the Name of your Name Jesus Christ. Father, never ALLOW the hearts of those You appointed to minister the Word, to negate from the process of ALLOWING the Oil to flow from “The Head, Downward.” Let Us be mindful of the direction that our Oil is flowing…Never allowing for our individual prosperity to outweigh the prosperity of the souls we are called to speak life. Let our words, our actions, our character, our integrity be so positively contagious that those who come into contact with our mere shadows catch on fire for the gospel. Thank you, Father for making room for each of our gifting’s. Father, “Your kingdom come. Your will be done On earth as it is in heaven. Give us This day our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, As we forgive our debtors,” Matthew 6:10-12 (NKJV). Signed, On The Frontline