My Voice, My Story…I’m Different
What does a phenomenal women ‘LOOK’ like to you? Or, should
I ask what are your perceptions and/or understandings of a phenomenal woman?
Well, to ‘Me’ being A Phenomenal Woman in ANY sense
(Spiritual and Natural) if about being “Transparent and Authentic.” So, you can
understand my stance I’m providing the definition that I will be working with
for both words. Transparent is being open, frank and really candid about the
matter at hand. Authentic is simply being genuine about self; the good, bad and
ugly. Being unapologetically me! Being unapologetically me, simply means I may
tell more about me, my struggles, my failures, my emptiness, my heart, my tears,
my life, etc. Many may think “I don’t believe I would have told that” well, guess
what? You are NOT me!
Healing My Soul!
On Friday, March 20th will be 17 years that I
have worn someone else’s last name. But, things are convoluted in reference to
the past seventeen years. As FB says, It’s Complicated!!! And, the struggle is real…so
many times, in an attempt to save face, I smiled instead of screamed, laughed
instead of cried, internalized instead of finding a field to externalize.
This is not about how life handed me lemons and I am trying
to make lemon-aide. I’m tired of lemon-aide and all its artificial sweeteners.
Every artificial sweetener has a side-effect. The worse of the side-effects is
how they leave you so thirsty and increase your appetite for an illusion and
delusion of your own life. You see, as a woman after God’s own heart,
attempting to be an example, I’ve discovered life happens to us all. The
problem I am finding is that as a Woman of God, the place I should be able to seek
help, there is no help because there are too many mask. Yes, I’ve worn that
mask too! But, the mask finally cracked…the leak in my heart caused the adhesive
on the bandages to dissolve. As the bandages began to fall off, one by one, I
became afraid I would began to bleed on others. But, I refuse to bleed on
others…I am determined to be a part of the healing process for many.
Ministering beyond the walls, ministering to the Whole Woman and being a
Phenomenal Woman of God comes with a price tag that is priceless. I desire to
be a PWoG whose life is about more than pretty articulated prayers, quoting all
the right scriptures, dressing in the proper attire, etc.
I CHOSE to be one who is transparent! I Chose to Reveal, so
I Can Heal! Not afraid of the conceptual perception of others, because the
reality is this: No earthly being has a Heaven or Hell to place me.
Sharing snippets of Me…Miles of Me! Stay tuned, more to come
J
Signed, My Naked Seventeen
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